have you ever

tried to be chill with someone because you still care about them, but if they do one little thing that upsets you, you just get this rush of hatred and flash backs of shitty memories it makes you feel sick to your stomach. you want to be so nice to them and try to be there for them but wow when they do something to upset you, it hits you right in your heart. it's weird because you care so much about them but if they catch you on that moment of frustration you say things you don't mean or is it your true feelings from your heart comming out? that's a question I have yet to find an answer...